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Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
worship
worship
is about giving
all that i am
to the one
who gave all that He was
to switch places with me
when you're in a relationship, you constantly evaluate it. the world looks at what they are getting out of it. But in a perfect relationship, you don't. You look at how much you are giving to the other party. And that's what EVERY relationship is all about. Especially the one with God.
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Heaven
Church was awesome today. There was such an atmosphere of release, coming and seeing what everyone had been through the past week. I never thought it would happen though, you rarely hear of disgrace happening and i didn't think i'd see the time when a pastor whom i thought was the very definition of Planet Shaker actually be exposed as a fraud.
Ps Russell spoke about how the focus was supposed to be God, all the time and never take our focus off Him when running the race.
Well while worshipping today i had a revelation about the goal; the prize; eternal life. Basically, an image of what eternal life was meant to be. It resonated with my spirit. I told God; yes, this is what I want to do forever.
I can't believe my perception of heaven was so wrong though.I always imagined heaven to be:
pearly white gates
golden pavement
a large mansion
lion and the lamb cuddling together
beautiful rivers and trees and fruits and every living creature
meeting up with my lost cat(s) and dog again
How wrong could i be?
But i got a refocused view of what eternal life is like. It's being in the throne room of God , worshipping Him in His all, splendour, glory. It's then that i realised that I would love to spend the rest of eternity just doing that. I mean, we tend to think of heaven as a place where life goes on smoothly. But what does our life on earth prepare us for? An eternal life of worship. And you know what, God?
I'm going to focus my eyes on that vision. That hope. Psalms 27:4. Dancing, praising, singing, forever in Your presence. Because You deserve that.
Ps Russell spoke about how the focus was supposed to be God, all the time and never take our focus off Him when running the race.
Well while worshipping today i had a revelation about the goal; the prize; eternal life. Basically, an image of what eternal life was meant to be. It resonated with my spirit. I told God; yes, this is what I want to do forever.
I can't believe my perception of heaven was so wrong though.I always imagined heaven to be:
pearly white gates
golden pavement
a large mansion
lion and the lamb cuddling together
beautiful rivers and trees and fruits and every living creature
meeting up with my lost cat(s) and dog again
How wrong could i be?
But i got a refocused view of what eternal life is like. It's being in the throne room of God , worshipping Him in His all, splendour, glory. It's then that i realised that I would love to spend the rest of eternity just doing that. I mean, we tend to think of heaven as a place where life goes on smoothly. But what does our life on earth prepare us for? An eternal life of worship. And you know what, God?
I'm going to focus my eyes on that vision. That hope. Psalms 27:4. Dancing, praising, singing, forever in Your presence. Because You deserve that.
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Thursday, April 03, 2008
work
bogged down with work, assignments and stuff. But yet, still clinging onto God for hope.
did i mention i had 20 hours of work? and i'm finding it hard to cope because i wake up too early. but yet again, i'm thankful for God providing me rest. Rest isn't about sleeping, it's about recovering our strength.
i'm thankful to God for providing me with friends and family who care about me and pep me up. And also a stable job and fun stuff to do.
Now, to stop procrastinating and get some work DONE!!!
did i mention i had 20 hours of work? and i'm finding it hard to cope because i wake up too early. but yet again, i'm thankful for God providing me rest. Rest isn't about sleeping, it's about recovering our strength.
i'm thankful to God for providing me with friends and family who care about me and pep me up. And also a stable job and fun stuff to do.
Now, to stop procrastinating and get some work DONE!!!
Monday, December 31, 2007
42
that's the temperature tomorrow . CRAZY , i tell ya. makes you wonder what everyone is gonna do at the fireworks celebration. check it out :
Melbourne Forecastdunno about you, but i'm glad we're having a dinner. though it be too darn hot to do anything during the day.
Issued at 10:50 pm EDT on Sunday 30 December 2007
Warning Summary
Fire Weather Warning: Forest fire danger will be extreme in the Melbourne
metropolitan area on Monday. CFA has declared a day of Total Fire Ban for the
Central Total Fire Ban district, which includes the Melbourne metropolitan area,
for Monday 31 December 2007.
Forecast for Monday
Fine. A hot and mostly sunny day. Moderate northerly winds developing, fresh at
times.
Precis: Mostly sunny.
City: Min 19 Max 42
Laverton: Min 17 Max 43 Yarra Glen: Min 16 Max 42
Tullamarine: Min 12 Max 43 Mt Dandenong: Min 15 Max 37
Watsonia: Min 16 Max 42 Scoresby: Min 16 Max 41
Frankston: Min 16 Max 39 Geelong: Min 16 Max 40
UV Index: 11 [Extreme] UV Alert from 9:10 to 17:40
Tuesday Afternoon cool change. Min 26 Max 37
Wednesday Fine. Min 16 Max 25
Thursday Fine. Min 17 Max 30
Friday Fine. Min 19 Max 35
Saturday Fine. Min 20 Max 37
Sunday Fine. Min 17 Max 26
Saturday, September 29, 2007
ache
wah. my whole body is aching.
this reminds me - you need to do warm up before playing any sports. especially captain ball.
Friday, September 28, 2007
LASER - the church model
i can't believe it's been so long since i've wrote something so profound. This has been stuck in my heart since high school(SAM, Taylors 2002) when i first learnt about LASERs . Then, God spoke to my heart about what He wanted a church to be, and how it was connected to what I was studying. Maybe that's why i chose engineering, because i thought God would teach me to understand concepts and relate them to His word.
Anyway, we shall use the basic laser structure to demonstrate.
A laser consists of a tube of gas. Let's take the Helium Neon laser , with a 5:1 ratio. this means that for every 10% of Neon there is 50% Helium. Both gases are enclosed in a tube. When the energy source boots up, the 2kV potential strips electrons off the conductor, which collide and excite the Helium. An excited Helium electron(in a metastable phase), when colliding with the ground state Neon , will propel the Neon to a 3S state. This state is where the emission of a photon (which is required for laser) happens.
anyway, basically the Energy Source is the Holy Spirit, and the electrons are the congregation. In order for the laser to be emitted, there needs to be a "population inversion" where there is a greater number of emissions taking place , ie. Church members "shining their light". Also, 98% of the laser light produced is actually reflected back into the tube. This means that for a church to start reaching out to others, it must first start by reaching out to itself, shining their light inwards and building up relationships and encouragement.
properties of a LASER light
1) COHERENT
Different parts of the laser beam are related to each other in phase. These phase relationships are maintained over long enough time so that interference effects may be seen or recorded photographically. This coherence property is what makes holograms possible.
We base our model on the fact that the "light" produced is in fact the light spoken of in Matthew 5:14-16. The light produced by the church, the actions and works of faith in Jesus are related to each other. And these phase relationships are maintained over time, so long that in fact they are made visible to normal eyes! Shining our light to one another isn't a "just one time" affair, it takes time and effort. Until testimony after testimony comes in of how the relationship has built up and strengthened both parties. Until even other people can see and say what a good relationship-in-Christ these two brothers/sisters have!
2) COLLIMATED ie, directional.
Because of bouncing back between mirrored ends of a laser cavity, those paths which sustain amplification must pass between the mirrors many times and be very nearly perpendicular to the mirrors. As a result, laser beams are very narrow and do not spread very much.
This is simply awesome! In order for the light of the church to be penetrative into this dark world , what do we do? plunge directly into the unknown? No! we start by building each other up!
Look. The light gets amplified because it has been bouncing inside the tube for many many times before being actually burst into the outside world. When it does, it has reached a magnitude maybe 10s of 1000s of times greater than it originally was. A lot of congregations, maybe even small groups, not just churches, want to see results and start impacting their surroundings immediately. I don't recall the apostles receiving the Holy Spirit immediately when Jesus left the earth. It took 50 days till that happened. I guess what this means is that to be effective in the ministry, each and every member of the congregation must start by first demonstrating their love to one another before bursting out into the world, so that by the time they start shining their light outside it sort of comes as second nature. Note though, that 2% of leakage occurs. there is a constant output into the harsh world outside, and this output slowly gets bigger in force.
3) MONOCHROMATIC. This means that all the light is of a single colour, or more precisely, of a single WAVELENGTH. I can't stress how important this is, it is not a good idea to be on a different wavelength or frequency than your leaders and elders. It is they who steer the church in the right direction, so even if you want to diversify, if the pastor says no/wait , you should be submissive and not argue.
-yitJuan-
Anyway, we shall use the basic laser structure to demonstrate.
A laser consists of a tube of gas. Let's take the Helium Neon laser , with a 5:1 ratio. this means that for every 10% of Neon there is 50% Helium. Both gases are enclosed in a tube. When the energy source boots up, the 2kV potential strips electrons off the conductor, which collide and excite the Helium. An excited Helium electron(in a metastable phase), when colliding with the ground state Neon , will propel the Neon to a 3S state. This state is where the emission of a photon (which is required for laser) happens.
anyway, basically the Energy Source is the Holy Spirit, and the electrons are the congregation. In order for the laser to be emitted, there needs to be a "population inversion" where there is a greater number of emissions taking place , ie. Church members "shining their light". Also, 98% of the laser light produced is actually reflected back into the tube. This means that for a church to start reaching out to others, it must first start by reaching out to itself, shining their light inwards and building up relationships and encouragement.
properties of a LASER light
1) COHERENT
Different parts of the laser beam are related to each other in phase. These phase relationships are maintained over long enough time so that interference effects may be seen or recorded photographically. This coherence property is what makes holograms possible.
We base our model on the fact that the "light" produced is in fact the light spoken of in Matthew 5:14-16. The light produced by the church, the actions and works of faith in Jesus are related to each other. And these phase relationships are maintained over time, so long that in fact they are made visible to normal eyes! Shining our light to one another isn't a "just one time" affair, it takes time and effort. Until testimony after testimony comes in of how the relationship has built up and strengthened both parties. Until even other people can see and say what a good relationship-in-Christ these two brothers/sisters have!
2) COLLIMATED ie, directional.
Because of bouncing back between mirrored ends of a laser cavity, those paths which sustain amplification must pass between the mirrors many times and be very nearly perpendicular to the mirrors. As a result, laser beams are very narrow and do not spread very much.
This is simply awesome! In order for the light of the church to be penetrative into this dark world , what do we do? plunge directly into the unknown? No! we start by building each other up!
Look. The light gets amplified because it has been bouncing inside the tube for many many times before being actually burst into the outside world. When it does, it has reached a magnitude maybe 10s of 1000s of times greater than it originally was. A lot of congregations, maybe even small groups, not just churches, want to see results and start impacting their surroundings immediately. I don't recall the apostles receiving the Holy Spirit immediately when Jesus left the earth. It took 50 days till that happened. I guess what this means is that to be effective in the ministry, each and every member of the congregation must start by first demonstrating their love to one another before bursting out into the world, so that by the time they start shining their light outside it sort of comes as second nature. Note though, that 2% of leakage occurs. there is a constant output into the harsh world outside, and this output slowly gets bigger in force.
3) MONOCHROMATIC. This means that all the light is of a single colour, or more precisely, of a single WAVELENGTH. I can't stress how important this is, it is not a good idea to be on a different wavelength or frequency than your leaders and elders. It is they who steer the church in the right direction, so even if you want to diversify, if the pastor says no/wait , you should be submissive and not argue.
-yitJuan-
so much has happened
yea. so much.
What Is? came and went , and blew everyone away. 51 decisions made. 51 new brothers and sisters. awesome!
Wilson's prom was simply amazing. So nice to just look onto the majestic mountains and vast oceans that God had created. Poor kangaroo though , i think we ran over it's tail with 3 different cars.
Inner Champion was fun. I know i've heard the faith of the centurion story a million times, but it's just God's simple reassurance to me that : just ask Me , believe that if I say it , it will be done. I mean, prayer is so simple , and yet so hard. We expect instant results. We expect to SEE it happen. We expect to use visible and earthly means to get our prayers answered. We do not realise God can also work behind the scenes. We do not grasp the power of Jesus, all He needs to do is say the word and the prayer is answered. Just pray and commit to Him.
Games Day just concluded. FANTASTIC FAITH won the cup! lol it was a great team effort for everyone. I guess it all boils down to the fact that most of our members came and the familiarity and team spirit was present.
I guess i had better go back to assignments and work. I can't believe i've studied for 4.5 years to be an engineer, only to realise at the last moment that I do not want to be one, i just want to get out of uni, get a job and get married. WTF? i'm seriously sick of studying and failing and picking myself up and falling down again.
What Is? came and went , and blew everyone away. 51 decisions made. 51 new brothers and sisters. awesome!
Wilson's prom was simply amazing. So nice to just look onto the majestic mountains and vast oceans that God had created. Poor kangaroo though , i think we ran over it's tail with 3 different cars.
Inner Champion was fun. I know i've heard the faith of the centurion story a million times, but it's just God's simple reassurance to me that : just ask Me , believe that if I say it , it will be done. I mean, prayer is so simple , and yet so hard. We expect instant results. We expect to SEE it happen. We expect to use visible and earthly means to get our prayers answered. We do not realise God can also work behind the scenes. We do not grasp the power of Jesus, all He needs to do is say the word and the prayer is answered. Just pray and commit to Him.
Games Day just concluded. FANTASTIC FAITH won the cup! lol it was a great team effort for everyone. I guess it all boils down to the fact that most of our members came and the familiarity and team spirit was present.
I guess i had better go back to assignments and work. I can't believe i've studied for 4.5 years to be an engineer, only to realise at the last moment that I do not want to be one, i just want to get out of uni, get a job and get married. WTF? i'm seriously sick of studying and failing and picking myself up and falling down again.
Monday, September 17, 2007
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
VIP
I got this from Strength For the Journey and thought i'd share it. And also so i can look back at it in times to come.
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If you’re among those who love God’s Word, here’s how to give it the VIP treatment in your heart.
Visualize it. Take a relevant principle from Scripture and visualize what it would look like if you lived it out. What would be the outcome of praying for your enemies? What if you gave your money to a worthy cause rather than buying that thing you’ve been wanting? Think about what it would look like if you lived out God’s Word.
Internalize it. The best way to meditate on God’s Word is to memorize it. When we get it inside our heads, it enables the Spirit to bring it to mind in “clutch” situations.
Personalize it. Don’t just think of the Scripture in vague terms, but insert personal pronouns and pray the passage back to God using “I” and “me” so that His Word is directed right to your heart.
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If you’re among those who love God’s Word, here’s how to give it the VIP treatment in your heart.
Visualize it. Take a relevant principle from Scripture and visualize what it would look like if you lived it out. What would be the outcome of praying for your enemies? What if you gave your money to a worthy cause rather than buying that thing you’ve been wanting? Think about what it would look like if you lived out God’s Word.
Internalize it. The best way to meditate on God’s Word is to memorize it. When we get it inside our heads, it enables the Spirit to bring it to mind in “clutch” situations.
Personalize it. Don’t just think of the Scripture in vague terms, but insert personal pronouns and pray the passage back to God using “I” and “me” so that His Word is directed right to your heart.
Luke 7:47
so much has happened in my life , i'm not going to blog about that though. I'll share about Inner Champion instead.
Luke 7:47 - Therefore I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven - for she loved much. But he who has been forgiven little loves little.
Church has a course for it's members called Inner Champion. It's on Tuesdays fortnightly, and it's meant to build you up in God's Word and school you in the culture of the church.
Well, 3 days before one of the meetings (i think it was week 2) I came upon this verse in my quiet time. I think I didn't take it seriously at the time, but then at church God convicted me of it's true meaning.
"Do you know how much do I love you Yit Juan?"
"Do you know how much I've forgiven?"
I know of John 3:16, which states that God so loved the world (full stop) that He gave His only begotten son (in a different sense from how you and i are adopted into God's heirs) that whosoever trusts (not simply believeth, for even the Muslims and Catholics believe in Jesus) in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.
I began to understand that in order to demonstrate God's forgiveness in my life , i needed to love much. Something i'm still struggling with, since it's so hard to find something to invest your love into. And i don't mean girls or stuff like that. I mean tangible friends. But i'm trying, and i feel it's best to love non-christians, because us christians already have God to turn to. It's the harvest which needs God.
Anyway, during Inner Champ, Ps. Debbie Prescott decides to share on forgiveness as well :)
Matt 6:15 - But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.
So i found out that God's love comes full circle.
He first loved us -> He forgave us -> therefore we should love others much -> therefore we should forgive others much -> and by doing so we are constantly being renewed by God! and as we sin a lot in our daily lives it makes much sense to love and forgive others so that you may be forgiven by God.
Amen!
Luke 7:47 - Therefore I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven - for she loved much. But he who has been forgiven little loves little.
Church has a course for it's members called Inner Champion. It's on Tuesdays fortnightly, and it's meant to build you up in God's Word and school you in the culture of the church.
Well, 3 days before one of the meetings (i think it was week 2) I came upon this verse in my quiet time. I think I didn't take it seriously at the time, but then at church God convicted me of it's true meaning.
"Do you know how much do I love you Yit Juan?"
"Do you know how much I've forgiven?"
I know of John 3:16, which states that God so loved the world (full stop) that He gave His only begotten son (in a different sense from how you and i are adopted into God's heirs) that whosoever trusts (not simply believeth, for even the Muslims and Catholics believe in Jesus) in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.
I began to understand that in order to demonstrate God's forgiveness in my life , i needed to love much. Something i'm still struggling with, since it's so hard to find something to invest your love into. And i don't mean girls or stuff like that. I mean tangible friends. But i'm trying, and i feel it's best to love non-christians, because us christians already have God to turn to. It's the harvest which needs God.
Anyway, during Inner Champ, Ps. Debbie Prescott decides to share on forgiveness as well :)
Matt 6:15 - But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.
So i found out that God's love comes full circle.
He first loved us -> He forgave us -> therefore we should love others much -> therefore we should forgive others much -> and by doing so we are constantly being renewed by God! and as we sin a lot in our daily lives it makes much sense to love and forgive others so that you may be forgiven by God.
Amen!
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
ScribeFire
OK OK this is so cool.
ScribeFire is an integrated blog editor ... integrated into FireFox.
it lets you blog from firefox, so you dont need to open up multiple stuff . simply cut and paste :D
ScribeFire is an integrated blog editor ... integrated into FireFox.
it lets you blog from firefox, so you dont need to open up multiple stuff . simply cut and paste :D
Powered by ScribeFire.
Monday, July 02, 2007
MY HOPE IS FOUND IN YOU
i simply love this song
lay down my life before You Lord
stand here in wonder of Your love
Lord i live for You alone
You're worthy of all praise
all of heaven shouts Your Name
all the earth will bring You praise
with my life i honour You
You're worthy of all praise
You're all i want
You're all i need
my one desire
my hope is found in You
everything i need is at Your feet
my life i lay it down an offering
i'm living for the glory of Your Name
You are all i need
You are all i need
You are all i need
Jesus
2 parts strike me the most:
i) "With my life i honour You"
A promise, to honour God with all my life. i know i may not be there totally but i'm trying so hard and i know that if i honour God with my life He will bless me in return
ii) "everything i need is at Your feet"
i cant stress how much i feel about this line. the notion that we throw down all our achievements and burdens and kneel at the feet of Jesus. the allusion to the simple sacred worship that the prostitute did, pouring her year's wages of perfume onto His feet and wiping it clean with her hair, her crowning glory. What is my crowning glory? it is nothing more than a gift from God, to be used to display radical worship to my creator.
stand here in wonder of Your love
Lord i live for You alone
You're worthy of all praise
all of heaven shouts Your Name
all the earth will bring You praise
with my life i honour You
You're worthy of all praise
You're all i want
You're all i need
my one desire
my hope is found in You
everything i need is at Your feet
my life i lay it down an offering
i'm living for the glory of Your Name
You are all i need
You are all i need
You are all i need
Jesus
2 parts strike me the most:
i) "With my life i honour You"
A promise, to honour God with all my life. i know i may not be there totally but i'm trying so hard and i know that if i honour God with my life He will bless me in return
ii) "everything i need is at Your feet"
i cant stress how much i feel about this line. the notion that we throw down all our achievements and burdens and kneel at the feet of Jesus. the allusion to the simple sacred worship that the prostitute did, pouring her year's wages of perfume onto His feet and wiping it clean with her hair, her crowning glory. What is my crowning glory? it is nothing more than a gift from God, to be used to display radical worship to my creator.
Sunday, June 17, 2007
lake wallpaper
So serene ...
on another note , i've got 2 more exams ... 22nd and 25th! arghh ... so far away
on another note , i've got 2 more exams ... 22nd and 25th! arghh ... so far away
Monday, June 11, 2007
Discipline
i'm up at the crack of dawn.
but my housemate is up earlier. He's a devout Muslim, who (i just found out recently) wakes up at 5:30am every day to do his solat. hey , i think he just went back to bed.
i truly respect that. I mean , he is serving his God diligently , and does his prayers 5 times a day.
What about me?
I know i shouldn't compare, what with 2 different religions and all that, but his faith towards Allah really inspires me. What do i do for God everyday? do i spend even once in close contact with Him? do i indulge in a little intimacy with my beloved Saviour? do i dance before His throne of salvation? do i speak of His mercy and grace?
even waking up early is a pain for some ppl (like the pig in me)
but there's more to life than 8 hours of sleep. More than simply a 5 minute phone call to God. More than just a wandering stumble through the road we call life.
i made a promise - my knees are gonna get chapped and crisped from kneeling before my King.
Disappointment Builds Character
finding it hard to blog recently , what with the internet shaping and all uni work. But God has been blessing me time and time again, and I know He won't let me down!
I just thought i'd share about disappointment. Lately I've been thinking, why don't I step out of my shell a bit more. Maybe because I'm afraid of being disappointed by the world and stuff in life. But i read somewhere(i think it was a secular thingie) that parents who allow their children a greater deal of freedom, while not slacking the reins totally, end up giving their children a better childhood and they grow molded into better and more resilent characters.
so ... i'm gonna do the impossible.
step up and step out. Not afraid of rejection or fear , knowing that i live for worshiping and serving my God ONLY.
Sunday, May 13, 2007
my desktop
is so friggin' cool.
okok , so it's not ALL that awesome. But it works.
style: Minimal
i launch progs/apps with Launchy(it's not a dock, it's a keyboard ninja's best weap)
Samurize for the clock in the bottom right corner
Yahoo Widgets for the darn weather(gonna change to Samurize soon)
okok , so it's not ALL that awesome. But it works.
style: Minimal
i launch progs/apps with Launchy(it's not a dock, it's a keyboard ninja's best weap)
Samurize for the clock in the bottom right corner
Yahoo Widgets for the darn weather(gonna change to Samurize soon)
Saturday, May 12, 2007
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